Maybe if I did great in my first year in Ateneo Law School, I would spend my summer 2013 without worrying whether or not I will stay in the same school for the incoming academic year. Since what happened is the contrary, I ended up suffering every waking moment. My negative thoughts almost killed me . Thinking of leaving Ateneo was hard to bear. If I were selfish, I can simply walk away and never look back. I do believe that there are still greater things other than law school (though my dad believes otherwise). The case is I have loving parents who expect me to bring home the bacon. I love them so much that I don't want to break their hearts. I don't want them to see me as a failure.
The summer days were not easy for me. Waking up each day, knowing that I'm getting closer to June 2013, was difficult. Deep in my heart, I believed that there is hope. I convinced myself that I will get a second chance in law school to make things right. I prayed to God that he may grant the ultimate desire of my heart. I told him that I'm doing it not only because my parents want me to be in law school but also because of my dream. The two semesters in my first year in law school taught me that being a lawyer is my ultimate dream. I promised myself that I will become a lawyer someday.
I guess miracles do happen because I just got in for the new school year in Ateneo. Yes, I'm retained. It was an answered prayer.
Now, I got my second chance and I swear, I will do whatever it takes not to blow it. I'm happy and I'm thankful.
If there is one thing that the situation taught me, it is to never stop believing. We cannot ask for the things we want if we, ourselves, are not convinced that we deserve it. God will never leave us in vain. To God be the Glory. To Mama Mary of Simala, I love you. Thank you. I am in a happy state. Thank you!
This article was written one week before my grades and "the list" were released. During those times, I felt like the world has turned its back on me but I kept my faith. I tried to overcome my fear of not being retained by writing a positive post. And yes, it worked. Just like that. The law of attraction. The law of love.