time to express gratitude..

it's thanking time again! :)

green coffee at my loneliness (a belated birthday gift)

through pinoy bloggers, a networking site for filipino bloggers, i met kuya mann of ransom. he is a poetic person. he writes to express what he feels and to show his mere observations in his daily life. he is even a member of poetry dances in which he is overly qualified. :)

to kuya mann, i thank you so much for this: green coffee at my loneliness

One night you knocked
in the hands of my clock
distressing my back
relieving my shock

Thinking when, thinking how
pressures overflow
working when, working how
arises my sorrow

But a few minutes have passed
there you came in a vast
viewed my thoughts like a mint grass
cooling my emotions so fast

Looking forward to this enthusiast
like a green coffee that awaken us
a sweet girl from the city of eagle
will stay longer everytime we mingle

read more of his compositions by clicking HERE

goodie awards

special mention to jelai of "my deviation", gee of "the second realm", hari ng sablay of "tambay", and gello kun of "malevolic demise", for these awards. you know naman kung san dito yung ibinigay niyo. thank you so much! :)

pero walang tatalo kay hari ng sablay na nagbigay ng twelve awards. :)

these awards are for all of you.

in loving memory..

"I know for certain that we never lose the people we love, even to death. They continue to participate in every act, thought and decision we make. Their love leaves an indelible imprint in our memories. We find comfort in knowing that our lives have been enriched by having shared their love." - Leo Buscaglia

just this week, i lost two persons closely related to me. they died on different incidents..

kuya daryll

i was on my way back to my province when i received a message from my tita asking me if how true that kuya daryll, the brother of my close friend / batch mate, died. i was, of course, shocked, upon hearing the question that my tita raised. i answered her with a question, “who told you te?” she said that her friend’s daughter passed her a message saying “please pray for the repose of the soul of daryll..” that kind of message is common to our place. many people have been using the availability of cellphone to spread some fake information about the death of certain persons only to find out in the end that those aren’t true. so, i didn’t mind what my tita told me on that afternoon for i thought that it's just another prank message from someone who has nothing to do with his/her life..

the other day, i went out strolling with my guy friend.. as we passed different remarkable places, we talked about some stuff until we had “kuya daryll’s death” as a topic. then, he confirmend that that kuya died of pneumonia..

i couldn’t believe what i’ve just found out. he can’t be dead. he's such a nice person, a real one, a fighter. he just got his bachelor’s degree in nursing.. a bright future awaits him. and now, IT’S OVER. at a very young age of 22, he passed away.

kuya daryll..
- was one of the band officers who used to give me bobbers (a kind of military punishment) every time i come late to the practice
- was one of those who encouraged me to never give up despite all the hardships that come my way
- was one of the persons who taught me how to fight against the things that bring me down..

tito sonny boy

everybody in the family was so happy when the bar exam 2008 results came out. everyone’s pride and joy was tito sonny who passed the philippine bar examination 2008.. parties. thanksgiving. a new lawyer has come to the family.. the whole kin celebrated with glee.

it sounds great, isn’t it? certainly it was until my mom received a call from his cousin, a dentist, informing her that their cousin died because of a gun shot. he was rushed on the hospital. dead on arrival.

what’s worse about what happened?
he has a family – a wife and kids. who would take good care of them now?
grandma just came home from dubai and she was welcomed by a very bad news. needless to say, she was so shocked.. i just pray that she would be able to bear the pain and accept what happened to her son.

another unbelievable thing.. tito sonny entered law school, studied proper law for four years and reviewed for the bar examination only to be found dead because some anti-life individual shot him? the person who killed him is a heartless beast. whoever that person is, i pray that God may forgive what he has done and that he may be guilty for the rest of his life for he has taken the life of an innocent man.

at a very young age of 29, tito sonny, a 53 days old lawyer, died.

good bye to mr. daryll ytom and atty. sonny anthony cortes.
may their souls rest in peace.

death is our sure destiny.

i know that someday, i will also leave this world just like what they have done. i just hope not now, not too soon. i still have many things left undone and many words left unsaid.

the thought of dead frightens me. how about you?

always having a day with her..

we always have time for each other.

the last time i went out with her was yesterday.
unfortunately, i accidentally erased the pictures kaya ayun..


for today's afternoon, we had two bottles of cappuccino with vodka.

we were supposed to eat ice cream but we failed to find our favorite flavor,
so we decided to just have the drinks.

it was worth it naman eh. good..
coffee! :)

and even our favorite teady, stripes, has her share too. :D

ne of the reasons why i love to be with her:
i can be myself all the time for i know that no matter what i do
and what i say, she'll always stay and love me.. :)

one of the reasons why i love her:
because she's shekinah - everything amazing.

kulitan moments with her.

we took pictures of ourselves.
we laughed to ease the pain.
we watched mr. bean and sponge bob.
we adored the dresses of the FTV models.
we danced as we watched lady gaga's "love game" music video.
we talked about some serious stuff.

we talked about the green photo frame.

we were both wondering who would i be with
in the picture that i'll soon put in it..

check out some of our other hang-outs:
i love you miga..
i so love her.
sunday with ken and ken.

isn't it great having a real friend around? :)

thank you message..

dan glaiza arzy jessar kim lea aya rheyr bon
vince lulay rusty ate aisa ate aiza pau
ate juliefer ate rona kuya crisate love ate yem




you may be absent on my special day but at least, you made an effort to greet me and to make me happy on the said day. thanks much! see you soon when i get back to davao.. :)

and oh, to ate aiza, i know that you don't like to be taken a video of but for the sake of making me happy, you did. thank you again and i wish that you pass the bar exam. see you soon when you get back from manila.. let's have a cup of coffee some other time. be happy. ;)


i woke up this morning expecting that my door would open and see him make his way to kiss me on the cheek to tell me to get up for breakfast. every morning, since the day he came home (april 26), he would go to my room and wake me up with his kiss and sweet words "mata na akong princesa." ("get up my princess.") but this morning, it was different. nobody entered my room and i wasn't so happy about the new day..


may 23, 2009. around 12 in the afternoon. davao airport.
i kissed him good bye and promised him that i'll be a good girl while he's away.. i hugged him tight as i tell him "I LOVE YOU PAPA."

i hate it every time that moment comes into our lives – the one where we bid each other good bye for we will be physically separated again for long months. my dad works abroad. he would go home every year and spend only 45 days with us. it has been that way for nineteen long years..

he decided to work abroad when i was 4 years old.. the company he was working then was having some problems and he felt the necessity of looking for another job before the situation gets worse. fortunately, he has a friend who helped him get a new job in papua new guinea. i know that my dad didn't want to leave us (me, my mom and younger brother) but he has no choice but to work away from us.. it's either he stays here in the philippines and let us all suffer or he works miles away and provide us with the kind of life he has always dreamed of..


my dad maybe far away from me but he makes sure that distance won't bring us apart from each other. he gets to call everyday to check how i'm doing and what's new with my life.. thanks to SMART! Simply Amazing. :)

i love my dad so much..

some of my previous posts about him..
happy family.
best man.
she found the right man.

the king.
"he" has two choices.


i salute my dad and all the other overseas Filipino workers (ofw)..
who make a living not only for themselves but also for their families and friends
who never gets tired of working hard to provide their loved ones with good lives
who sacrifice the times when they could have stayed with the persons they love in order to give them not just what they need but also what they want
who remain strong despite all the adversities that they have experienced and are experiencing
who bear the pains to paint a smile on the faces of the persons they love most
who have faith in themselves


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blooms @ 18.

finally, i have uploaded all the photos taken on my debut party last may 8, 2009.

the pictures uploaded in this album are my favorite ones. i have posted the other pictures in different folders. you can click the link below to view the photos.
from my friends
taken using my camera
from kuya mark
blooms @ 18 (part 2)
blooms @ 18 (part 3)
blooms @ 18 (part 4)

thank you so much for this kuya mark! :)

i so love you ogie. :D
thanks for my hair and make-up.

never leaving my phone on my special day.

green butterflies mean a lot to me. A LOT.
btw, thanks tita yeng for this.

thanks lenyme and ken for helping me..

feeling princess :)

one big happy family.
i just can't imagine my life without them.

i so love my cake.
thanks kuya we of wee cake. :)

green. flowers.

i'll always be their little girl. :)

BLOOMS @ 18.

cheers for the ENDINGS and the NEW BEGINNINGS.

i'll always love to dance with my father.

thanks for the 18 roses and for the 18 candles. :)

18 princesses. :)


i so love you mutienians!
(from l to r: paul, honey, me, brizza, charlemagne)
only 4 attended my party dahil sa summer classes but i still enjoyed the night. :)

i don't love myself. i'm crazy with myself.